I hate Christmas

If I could have fit my face into the mask of the Grinch – it would have been me. The Christmas season drove me nuts.(Still does some) If I could have gone to bed and woke up New Year’s Eve or even the 26th I would have been fine. It was such a depressing time of year for me. I didn’t like giving gifts, receiving gifts or decorating the house. It all pissed me off. I was true in color grinch. My two boys are the only thing that keeps the season somewhat alive in our house. My youngest LOVES Christmas – My oldest LOVES family time. My husband goes with the flow to help me through the season and help the boys still enjoy the holiday.

Blah-Hum-Bug!

Something deep inside wanted it to be different and the more I tried the more I pulled back. An introvert at heart. I tolerate crowds in small doses. Frankincense oil and Joy essential oil on my feet helped me stay balanced and the valor I dabbed on my wrist many times during the day helped with the overwhelming stress I felt.

I was determined not to hate the holiday.

In order for that to change, I had to make a decision and really look at what I didn’t like and what I did enjoy. I enjoyed my family but I couldn’t do the big gatherings for long. Kids screaming, people talking loud, tight visiting space. People touching me talking very close in my personal space. Grr…ugh… Can’t! I had to find what balanced me. Seriously just typing that gave me anxiety! I turned to my essential oils to help balance my energy and to practice how to stay in the moment without getting out of whack. I also had to do some shadow work to figure out what caused the struggle at that time of the year. It was pretty simple to list out in my journal. My most stressful events that have happened in my life were surrounded by this time of year.

• I lost not one but two babies (before 12 weeks) in November
• I left my ex after a domestic violence event.
• My stepfather died in November
• I am an introvert and crowds are stressful
• When I went through a divorce it was in December. I was courted ordered to return all the gifts to the family (Yes, for real and the judge apologized)
• My aunt that I was super close too passed Christmas eve.

What would I decide to change

Me. I had to look at what was in front of me and not what was behind me. More oils applied! Yes seriously I could have slid off the map I was so oiled up but I wanted to balance and focus on the new days to come. Not only did it work but I truly have enjoyed the Thanksgiving holiday, actually bought some Christmas gifts – and cooked like we were starving. I made a decision for it to be a new tradition for me to do what I can enjoy and let the rest go. I love seeing my boys happy and enjoy family time without feeling stressed. Holidays are coming – Do you – make your own traditions. Ones that you get the most out of and not the ones that are 100 years old that people repeat yearly out of habit and not enjoyment. I am not really a full blown Grinch. I had to find what worked for me. I had to find the balance that I could handle and get through the holiday without the anxiety. Giving gifts just to be giving is crazy sauce to me. I enjoy with all of my being giving to someone who is in need. To truly give a gift and not exchange a box. The commercial-ness of the season has gotten so crazy the purpose is lost in the wrapping paper. Breathe – Balance – Enjoy If you enjoyed today’s post and you know someone who is in business struggling and out of balance. Tell them about the Free Wednesday training system it is perfect for anyone getting started and are serious about learning.  

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