Tide and Toilet Paper brings closure to fear

I bet when you saw the title you thought what in the world is she talking about.  I found it funny that those two items got my attention in Wal-Mart shopping for the usual items on my grocery list for my family. When I was a teenager living on my own in another country I had a very tight budget, and very limited to what I had access too financially. Actually the words I used to use was “I am as broke as a church mouse” not really sure how broke a mouse was since they have all their needs met pretty easily.

29 years ago I stood in the base PX with $80 in my hand to buy cleaning supplies and food to last for 2 weeks until the next pay check. Even in the early 80’s that was hard to do for two people. Especially not having good shopping skills as a teen. I remember looking at my list and needing toilet paper and tide those two items were going to take up $15 of the $80 that I had in my hand – at the same time I NEEDED those items. I bought both and only one package of hamburger and the rest of the small items from the list. $80 did not go far back then and it sure doesn’t go that far now.

Fast forward 29 years I was standing in Wal-Mart and tossed a Mega Pack of Charmin on top of the huge grocery cart that was stuffed full of things that was on my list and some that was not – you know how that goes. As I walked by and grabbed the largest container of Tide and sat it beside the Charmin Mega Pack I had a flash back of that day 29 years ago and smiled. I have come a long way since that day, and so thankful that I could buy the big pack instead of the 4 pack and hoping it would last two weeks. My cabinets now over flow with things we use and some we don’t use. I call it wasteful now compared to what I had in stock back then.

I lived in fear back in those days of not having enough and very often running out of food before payday came around eating crackers to try and stop the growling and drinking water which I had to boil water on the stove and strain it through a filter to drink. I was very thin, lonely full of fear. I saved everything in order to have what I needed and used things sparingly. I had dreams back then – big dreams and had no idea they could really come true because I could only see what was in front of me at the time.

Today as Brooks Marketing Enterprise is developing – a business that is run on the go using social media and my Smartphone with my two sons busy schedules, at the present time working full time as a nurse educator – blogging for not one but two nursing magazines, author of the Book “The Nurses Voice“, and a marketer for two successful online direct sales companies, I don’t suffer the lack I did 29 years ago, and I am watching those dreams come alive that the young girl had back then.

My goal is to work with people who have those dreams and help them come true with the skills I have learned along the way and applied them to my business. I have been a nurse for 23 years in a psychiatric hospital working with people that most of the community fear and want nothing to do with. As I transition out of nursing and into the retired world another dream is going to open up as I move my business forward.

What is it that you fear and or has held you back? We all have them – My fear was not having enough and running out. Today even though I can stop by and pick up what I need on a daily bases when my supplies get low I still feel that small voice of panic speaking to me “Your running out!” I do not have to listen to that voice any more.

Fear is the voice inside your own head that talks to us when we are reaching outside of our comfort zone – and outside of your comfort zone is where dreams happen and come true. I would love to hear what your fear is – no matter how small it seems or silly. What makes you not reach for your dream?

As a nurse inside a mental hospital I have watched so many crushed dreams sitting miserably in chairs along the walls. Faces that used to light up with ideas now sit in a dark shadow of who they think they are now. No longer reaching for a dream – sometimes not even hope. As I have listened to stories for years of who they once were and what they wanted to do “back then” my heart breaks at the broken spirit that has stopped trying to be who they were completed designed to be.

Regret is not a diagnoses but it should be, along with “I wished I would have….” and the famous words “If only I had …”

The only things that happens when we live in fear is nothing – and dreams get tossed into a drawer or a closet and smothered with dust and mold. I listened to Kris Vallotton’s podcast  “Spiritual Intelligence” this weekend and he spoke about that small voice that we hear on the inside. I don’t want to spoil the story for you but check that out – he will amaze you and it is free.

I have a team that is reaching outside of their comfort zone and loving the person they are finding inside their self.  I would love to see you learning along with us – we have two businesses that will work for almost anybody. Join the dream team journey.

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Angela was voted 110th Leading Moms in Business celebrating the top mom owned businesses. She has been promoted in her job from a night shift staff  nurse to the day shift as a Education and Training Educator for the new nursing employees, she has built her direct sales business part – time, while working a full time job, with her blog, newsletter, and smart phone. She has never picked up the phone to call cold leads or have home parties.